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Name: Toya
Location: Norfolk
Birthday: 7/17/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Several things interest me. I like to read. My two favorite books are The Coldest Winter Ever by Sister Souljah andFlyy Girl, by Omar Tyree, I read other authors as well Eric Jerome Dickey and Zane. I love the madea shows, eventhough I really did n't like diray of a mad black woman the movie, it was okay but it was not as funny as the play. I watch one soap opera which is Passions.
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AIM:  caramelqt8604
Yahoo:  caramelkutie757
Member Since:
9/9/2005
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| Whats up x??!! It is Thursday and by this time next week i'll be in Florida..... well Technically South Beach, but me, sHeAy, hEaThEr, and lEsLie, will be in Miami too..... Can't wait to bask in the sun and go clubbin in the sun shine state.......
Yay 4 more days!!!!!!!!!! Its goin to be so much fun | | |
| wow, I haven't been on xanga in a HOT min........but I have sum stuff to say.......
b4 I decided to write a new entry *becuz I haven't wrote one in soooo long* I decide to go and look at my friendz entries to see what they're talkin bout. So I go on sheay's page, and I found out what she thought about the skating party......... So lemme vent....
Girl has got it all twisted, and the way she talked about it made me sound like a straight up bitch. She was saying that I was mad becuz I have left her stranded. It wasn't like that at all. Yea I talked about it but it wasn't the REAL reason y I was mad. Leslie had blown it all out of proportion like she normally does...... * like when she talked to darrin about the frank incident.....which is another story that I don't want to vent on right now...* I mean it was ways I could had gone home but the nsu bus was not one of the ways. See me and britt was not really planning to go to the skating party becuz the sign up sheet for the bus was full. So we couldn't get on the bus. We was going to sneak on the bus. then sheay calls and ask us if we was going and I was like yea, so then she was like did you and britt want to ride wit me so I was like yea. I'm so glad sheay asked us becuz I knew of some people who had tried to sneak on the bus and they were caught. * I was thinking that could've been us. I saw tasha like maybe one or twice but around the time sheay decided to leave and I didn't see tasha anymore. And yes I caught a ride wit shannon home, but what if she had already made other plans and her car was full, thank god it was not becuz me and britt would have really been STRANDED.. But the real reason was because of the way sheay was actin that night. I mean girlfriend didn't want to skate because she haven't done it in so long, but how else was you going to skate if you at least don't try. Yea you could fall down, but every one does it, britt felled on her ass hard that night but it didn't stop her from skating. I was mad because sheay was being stubborn and wasn't having fun like me and britt was. She was saying that her feet hurt, well duh because skates were made for skating not for standing...lol. Then she came up with an excuse that she was going to wait for frank so they could skate together. Thats cool and all, but frank didn't even show up so sheay decides to leave. That was the real reason y I was mad becuz she let frank put a damper in her mood. I know how much sheay likes frank but you shouldn't have no boy put a damper in your mood. But what I really want to VENT about is what leslie told sheay about my joke, statin that I was going to call sheay and tell her I was stranded... yo it was a joke it was not that serious and I really was not going to do that. i'm not off my "rocker" as sheay puts it. I love sheay to def. I always think of her as a sister that I never had. Whats so fucked up is that she got it twisted *listenin to leslie's pov* and made me sound like a bitch. But its okay its not even all of that serious just sumthin to vent about........
*But anyways lemme talk about what I really came up hea to talk about*
For the past month my life has been okay, gotten into trouble gotten out of it things like that. Been deregistered about 3 times just because nsu didn't put my loan info in the computer.Feb is hea and i'm feeling the way I always do around valentine's day. Pitiful, because I don't have a boyfriend to share it with. But I mean its not like I can't get a boyfriend cause I can, but i feel like I want a boyfriend just to share v day with. I am very independent sometimes a good thing sometimes a bad, but I dont want a boyfriend just because of valentines day, you know what I mean?? Sheay being the best friend she is *i'm so happy I have her as a friend* introduced me to this guy name Koki. I think Koki is really cute, but sometimes he be having his "off" days which I really don't like when I was talkin on the phone I ask him to tell me about himself and he was like I don't feel like talking about myself right now. And I was like y and he was like because I don't. * I mean who says stuff like that? Koki evidently.* But when he is not having an "off" day I really like him. Like after the Mardi Gras party at the legion he came over. *he was my window hoe lol* He gave me all of his beads saying that he saved them all for me instead of giving them to other girls. Which was kind of cornballish but cute and I found out I like things like that. But can I really be in a relationship? Seeing what sheay has gone through in the past couple days I don't want one I still want to be independent * my professional way of saying pimpin lol* But since I haven't had one since my jr. year in high school *which was about 3 yrs ago, a very long ass time* I kinda want one to see how it feels again. But I don't want it be like this: I get into a relationship with koki, but i miss being independent so i break up wit him or worse start to cheat on him. It wouldn't be fair to him, and I really don't want to be that type of person. But hopefully my pov would change, because I would really like a b/f. We will see how things work out. But it the mean time help me please.....lol The one and the only SweetasCaramel | | |
| Today I have done something, I never had thought was
possible two weeks ago. I registered for my classes. I remember
crying and feeling so bad because I had no one to turn to for
help. My mother and my grandmother made up so many excuses. And
my dad just really didn't understand. I felt like I was trapped
in a locked and dark closet and no key to get out. I didn't know
what else to do than to just cry. Ms. Jackson gave me the key so
I would be trapped no more. I have never been so thankful in my
life. Words cannot describe how I feel. Overjoyed and relieved just
don't cut it. And everytime I think about the situation I
cry. How in my time of need my mother and my grandmother couldn't
help me, but Ms. Jackson a person of no relation to me could. I don't
know what is wrong. It would seem that your own family would care
about your future the most, but in my case it is not like that.
Now I'm not saying that my family don't care because they really
do. It is just when the price gets high, my family starts to care
less. My family hopped right on to it when it was time to get my dorm
room stuff and my books. *well sort of my books, they got my dorm
room stuff first, very opposite huh?* And they knew of my financial
status. It would seem that getting my tuition would be the most important
thing right?
I have really been a waterfall over the past couple
weeks. Last weekend was when I cried the hardest. I told my mom about
the wonderful thing that Ms. Jackson has done for me. I brought it up
while we was playing uno and my mom was in a good mood. (my
mother has been in a bad mood the past couple weeks*for a reason I
don't know*, and everything that is postitve she has a special way to
make it negative. Winning the lottery probably would become a bad
thing, when she gets into her *bad* moods. I'm not going to lie it took
me a long time to tell her because I dreaded the outcome. I don't
know why, it is some kind of an effect my mother has on me, it probably
has a little thing to do with the way I was raised too, it is really
hard to explain. I should've told my mother right away that Ms.
Jackson found a way to pay for my tuition. But I couldn't why I just
don't know. I told Mike (my step-father) right away. He was so
appreciative of Ms. Jackson, he told me to tell her thank you
very much. So why I couldn't do the same thing. Well
anyways to get back to the point I told my mother how Ms. Jackson
helped me and how I was so thankful for what she did, because she
didn't have to do it. And you know what my mother said?? Exactly what I
thought she would said. "Well wouldn't it been eaiser if you had a
job?" I mean she is right I probably wouldn't have all of the tuition
that I owed, but I would probably been able to make payments. And the
tuition would probably been lower. But I did not hear well thats great
LaToya, or you should thank Ms. Jackson for me, or I should thank Ms.
Jackson, or thats really a good thing for Ms. Jackson to do. It hurt
me so much, because I felt that she was taking Ms. Jackson for
granted. If someone did that for my daughter, I would be praising
the ground they walked on. And then to make matters worst when Ms.
Jackson came to pick me up the next day, my mother saw her while getting
in the car. All my mother did was said hello and how are you doin. I
was extremely mad at her for what she did. I did not talk to her for
two days. When she asked what was the matter I gruntled
"nothing". Why I couldn't tell what was really on my mind I don't
know. So tomorrow I would need another box of tissue, because I still
have to tell my grandmother. She is the same way, that's where my
mother gets all of her characteristics from.
And I read my best friend's post before I wrote
this. I was hurt, because she was telling the truth. When I
look at it I have been secretive. But when was it a time when I
wasn't. I am the type of person who does not say anything.
I tend to bottle up my emotions. And for her knowing me for 6 years she
should know that. But I guess she does not. The only thing
that I told her was the stuff that my mom be doing, like the time, my
mom took the car away from me and the time when we was in the 10th
grade my mom had kicked me out of the house because I was outside
playing, and forgot to call my grandmother to wish her a happy
birthday, those things I just can't keep bottle up. If she really
think about it she will come to the conclusion that there hasn't been
many times where I opened up and let know what was going on in my mind,
because i'm not that type of person. And it is not the fact that
I'm hiding something it is just nothing to tell. But i'm really hurt at
this: We have been friends for 6 years, if she has a problem, why
not just tell me, is it really best to avoid me, when I really didn't
know that she felt that way. I know if I had a problem with her I would
tell her, write a letter or something. But I knew nothing. I mean
I understand where she coming from, and she has a right to be upset,
but there are things that I can't explain. And since she does not
have a mother like mines she would not understand where I'm coming
from, and help me describe what i'm feeling. But I guess it comes to
the conclusion I have learned over the past couple of weeks.
"People think differently"
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I took my *math* final today, And I think I did okay,  I studied a little bit for my *physical science* exam 2mora, so I'm think I'm straight. Other than the fact that it has been raining today has been a good day...... now yesterday I don't even want to talk about it. So many things didn't go the way I've planned but I didn't worry about it because I was going to the Alpha party right............ Wrong.  For the Alpha party I was so flyy if I took my parachute off I might have had fall and died *lol* j/p  but I did a lot of xtra stuff for this party, that I wish I really should've done. *1st*, I've shouldn't never brought the ticket, *2nd* I should've never got anything new, And *3rd* I should've never even thought about the party, I've should've been at my dorm studying for the math exam, but no, sooo  many people was goin that I had to go.......
Well that was the problem. For the party I borrowed my mom's car, so I can drive in the *05 Altima* wit *Brett* and *Sheay*. It rained and it was cold so me, sheay and brett had to run to the party to avoid gettin soaked.  It was aight when we got there, we saw and talked to alot of people, *eveybody was looking so flyy and flashy* while they was playing some old music. Then they played touch it by Busta so we decided to get on the dance floor. We couldn't dance because here come the aka's doin their line thing which was cool because I love the aka's. But anyways baltimore club music started coming on and then go-go so I was beatin my feet lol. We was dancing for about 10 mins and we was gettin hot so we decided to to get some water. But there was no water and there was a mad line at the water fountain. Then all of the sudden the lights came on and the dj was like this is the last song due to overcapacity, I thought it was like 1 sumthing but it actually was 12:30. Boy I was  ..........
The party was supposed to end at 2 sumthing, The only best part of the party was the food, the mini egg rolls, chicken wings, and meatballs. Then on top of that when we was leaving they had like 6 cop cars and they had dogs to make sure that we was not going to start nothing. We was going to some of the after parties but then we was like they was probably going to get shut down too, so we grabbed Mike *me and Brett's friend* carried our mad asses to IHOP. Once we got to IHOP I turned played kryptonite and we was dancing in the parking lot. When we got in Ihop there was a lot of people so we had to wait for like a hour. But I had fun at the end  , and didn't go to bed till like 5 dis morning. But I'm kinda madd because I found out 2day that *Brandon (high school Brandon) and Rodney* was at the party and I didn't even get to see dem. Oh today when we was comin back from the caf guess who we saw: Mr. Sexy aka Shabazz!!! *lol* me and brett was talking to him about the party, and told him since the dance ended early we wanted half of our money back. He started smiling, then apologized and was like at least ya got in. He said that there was people standing outside for a long time and still didn't get to come in. But those *lucky* people can get their money back as long as they still have their ticket. Me and Brett was like DAMNN........... But its okay 2mora's another day and with that said i'm out.................. 
The one and the only SweetAsCaramel
These are a few of the pics that Mike took at IHOP........... big ups to mike * I stole them from his facebook photo album lol!!
 This is me trying to looking scandalous...........also kinda madd because we was waiting for like 2 hours to be seated.
 This is mai roomie Brett looking young flyy and flashy!!!!
 This is Sheay looking like the diva she is and her special friend Frank.
 And this is me, sheay, and brett looking oh so sexy!!!!
 Oh and this mike *looking presidential* he is the one who took the pics
Oh and I thought this was funny.....
can you read it??!!! lol | | |
|  Whats good???
I  the color pink *lol*
ITS DECEMBER 1ST!!!!!!!! 24 more days till xmas wonder what i'm gettin.......... lol
I had so much fun over the Thanksgiving break............. Only problem is that it went back so quick.......
I can't believe that this is the last week of the 1st semester. It had went by so fast........ I had alot of fun and I hope that next semester would be even better.....
*Today was a GREAT day.* I didn't have no problems in my classes today. Since I didn't have to work today, which is another great plus, I went to the cafe a little later today. Which worked out fine, because who do I see there, no one other than Dustin, Adrian, Brandon, Marquis, and Andrew. *DA 2028 group lol* They mad cool and i'm glad I met them. It was funny while me and Brett * my lovely roomie* was eating, Dustin and Adrian kept looking over at us. Brett kept giving them dirty looks and I was just laughing. So then I spot out Shabazz *An alpha man, which is also a cutie* And told Brett to ask him if the tickets went up yet, he was lyke no and ask me if I was going to buy one. I was lyke maybe tomorra. But then Shabazz was like they would be 15 tomorrow. I was like I didn't have my money on me it was in my dorm room, then V * one of Shabazz's fellow Alpha bro and friend* was like I will take you to your room and then I will drop you off at Echols since we was going to the game. *So I was like ok  *
*on another note*
NSU men's basketball team won their game against Towsend University......... See we Spartans be winning something.........
!!!!!!!!The Cold and Casual is on Sunday December 4th!!!!!!!!!!!
And I am going, only problem I have to find something to wear..... I gott to keep it fresh so Sheay I need your help!! *lol* I really don't feel like buying anything. But if I really really really have to I gues I will....Oh and Dale if your reading this we got to get it crunk like we did a couple sat's ago, only you know how to do it right!!!!! *I really would like to have that 100 appples drink again!!* 
The one and the only............... SweetasCaramel
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